dare to dream, dare to fly

moved moved moved

2008-09-12T16:22:47Z

Hello everyone. I'm back to notify my f-list that I'm moving to vintaqee, which will be my personal/art journal from now on. Yes it's q, not g 8D
Reason? Well cuz I never updated here and it just sucks and I want to start new and fresh and more organized.
I'm not going to delete this journal-- just leave it be coz I don't want anyone to take this name haha. But you all can remove this journal from your f-list.
I haven't posted anything on vintaqee but I've reserved a spot to make my ~~so-not-famous introduction post~~ soon. Add me there? 89

♥ cyaxxx.

I PH4iL 8D;

2008-08-25T09:33:24Z

Omg I haven't updated this journal in ages.
I'm so sorry if I haven't replied to you guys >.>
~~esp Annie and Marfyy for saying happy birthday ;.;~~
I've never opened this journal anymore coz I'm lazy and just...fail lol. I always update my icon journal but not this XD; *is a sucker for personal journal* and SINCE I'm such a sucker for this stuff...I'm thinking of closing this journal. And instead, I want to make a drawing journal. I'm starting college soon (in 5 days probably) and I want to make money so I think I'll try submitting my stuff. Who knows, maybe it'll work XD so does anyone know a good web where we can submit our work?
Oh, and I'll tell you my new username if I've made one. That, if you want to know :D;

And something funny...
I feel like most of your icons look the same coloring/texture-wise. It'd be nice to see icons of more variety from you.
Your use of stock images is great!
written by an anon on that icon crit meme. To me. I have to strongly disagree with same coloring thing. I mean, lul srsly? Excuse meeeee, I always -and I mean always- try different kinds of coloring every time I post a new batch. And can't they just see that my icons look different in each post? Isn't it kinda too obvious? .__.
As for textures, I won't deny the fact that I have the tendency of using those ~~pretty!~~ light textures but I'm working on that, really. *remembers telling Annie this XD*
so yeah, it kind of annoyed me but I shrugged it off because! well, it's an anon. No wonder duh. :D

So...I guess this is all for now and & love you guys♥

weirdness 8D

2008-06-28T11:24:28Z

I've been in weird moods lately. I've just found myself writing again. I've abandoned it for what, almost a year? I don't know what's wrong with me XD; I find myself reading fanficts again...this is so funny lol. Srsly.
Anyone like reading fanficts here?
Oh, and I've beaten Persona3 FES, both The Journey and The Answer, and whoot it was worth every second. Def. my fav game ever XD <333333
I'll also be going for some days to prepare for college stuff, so I won't be home for a while. Man I haven't updated my icon journal for a month o__O;; rawr. So yeah. I think I'm going to write now lul 8D

BACK<3

2008-06-20T09:57:26Z

I ISH BACK♥

So I went away for some days to apply for a college and now am back lollll. The trip was fun, as I went shopping like crazy haha, I haven't done that in a while. Kind of scary, when my inner self goes mad like that XD
So my comp has been re-installed and it's good again; I didn't lose any data whatsoever but the problem is .... ! While I was attempting to make my internet work earlier, I kinda... clicked on things and now whenever I want to switch user/log off, this window keeps popping up. Y'know, it asks for password; you have to type the username you want to log in, the screen goes all black; just this window's present...man what have I done? O___O; could anyone tell me how to fix this? It's not like it's harming my comp or something, but it's disturbing 8D;

And since I'm back, I'll be ~~slowly~~ browsing thru my friends page. Sorry if I haven't been in touch with you guys but things have just been chaotic lately :/ *bows down in apology*

**edit: oh lol my comp is ok now, nice 8D;

..oh crap.

2008-06-06T09:37:22Z

My comp's bitching on me. This window pops up whenever I start my comp; here's what it says: "if you were in the middle of something, the information you were working on might be lost. Please tell Microsoft about this problem. We have created an error report that you can send to us. We will treat this report as confidental and anonymous. To see what data this error report contains, click here" and then there's "debug", "send error report", and "don't send" at the bottom. Every time I click one of those, my comp immediately restarts on itself. In other words, I can do nothing. So I ignore it for now (I hope it won't restart again damn I'm typing so fast). Do u guys know what the hell is wrong with my comp? Oh, also, another window pops up and says something about running an anti-virus and rechecking stuff... help please? Should I like, download anti-virus or something? I've no clue. I don't want to lose my data .__.

I reazlie I haven't updated for a while. I've been busy playing Persona3 FES lol, holiday is made for videogames XDD;
so how are you guys doing?

<3

oh love

2008-05-16T11:54:56Z

So I've just beaten Crisis Core coz I'm too lazy to fight the optional boss Minerva (who apparently has 10million hp) plus I've just got my PS2 repaired (yay I can play Tales of the Abyss again!) so yeaahhhhh. The ending was so depressing .__________.
~~WHY DID ZACK HAVE TO DIE??~~ He's kabillion times better than Cloud. Really. You can kill me, but I really am not a fan of Cloud, ever XD;
Zack is a wonderful character, I like him. And the relationship between him and Aeris was just so cute♥; I think they've become one of my fav pairings now XD and the reason why Aeris is dressed in pink! Ow I never thought it was Zack who made her do that :P
and The Loveless quotes were...cool XD hahahahah. I hope I'm not spoiling anyone but I just can't get over it atm lol.

But oh well♥

...sephy love ;Db

2008-05-09T02:16:39Z

So I've got Crisis Core and I've been playing it for 7 hours and omg guess what? I'm in love with Sephiroth. I know. This is kind of unbelievable butbutbut. Extra points for Sephy in CC! He's so awesome♥ and he's such a kind guy :/
Aeris' voice is made of win too XD
I've just updated my icon journal today-- and suddenly I feel the urge to make Sephy icons lol ;Db
Oh and I have this drawing I promised to show to Chanel (uhm aka whispyr) and Margyy and since my scanner is working again I guess I'll put it up in the next post. It's kind of disturbing though XD;
I hope you guys are doing alright; I've been lacking online time lol :( I miss you all<3;

meme's answers (finally)<3

2008-04-26T11:42:30Z

So okay. Final exams are over, I can live again XD
I've finally decided to answer all the questions (I know, I've been procrastinating for too long). So here are the answers!

I want to know what your name is ;_;
My name is Felia. Yeah that’s my real name. XD;
Have you ever had a pet? If so, what was it's name etc~
I had more than ten rabbits when I was a kid lol. Now I only have one Golden Retriever whose actual name is Max but being a sucky girl that I am, I nicknamed him Maxie when he was only two months old and now everyone’s calling him by that name. I mean. Max is such not a cute name for a cute dog, right? …well at least he was so damn cute when he was a puppy XD he’s still cute now though ;3
Do you like Japanese food? (HAHAHAHAH)
I LOVE Japanese food lol. My favs are tempura, udon/ramen, teriyaki and any katsu stuff.
If you have any vague/specific idea on what you want to do/accomplish in your life, what is it?
Mmmm well…I’m not really certain…but what I know is I want to pursue my dream and make it come true. I want to show everyone that art is really something (people disregard this sometimes, they even think artists are useless .__.)
What hurts you the most?
…when people act as your friends but behind your back they talk as if you’re the most obnoxious thing alive on the entire face of the planet. When they give you fake smiles and hugs but behind your back they frown in disgust upon hearing your name. This is the only thing I can think of right now 8D;
What food can you not resist?
Ice cream. Cakes. .__.
What's your most cherished dream?
Hmm no idea. Can’t remember them well, can I XD
Biggest fandom? AND WHY?
Final Fantasy, of course. I don’t think I should state why, coz it’s that obvious…it’s like the most popular game ever and almost every gamer plays it and it’s just awesommmeee. How can I not love it?♥ How can anyone not love it?
What do you look for in a guy?
Loyalty. Now does that sound like I’m talking about my dog or is just me haha? Kindness. Genuineness. And most of all…I’m the type of girl who needs to be taken care of HAHAH seriously ;P
Iconing- how long do you think you'll be doing it and how the heck do you have the time for it? |D;
LOL I have no idea. I really enjoy iconing for now, I think you can say it’s a part of my life? Seeing people enjoy my work makes me happy and I’d always love to see those who trust me happy, so I guess that’s how it is now. Hopefully for a long, long time :)
About time, haha I don’t know. I just make icons whenever I want to, whenever I have the time.
What's more important to you, friends or family?
Friends. Maybe. Not sure. Can I say both are important? .__.
What's your biggest fear?
Being betrayed by someone I really trust? D:
What is your biggest achievement?
Don’t know. I need to backtrack and see if I can find any in my already-yellowing-memories. XD;
What's your favorite animal?
DOGS :D and kitties, sometimes.
Do you like to cook?
I do. Only whenever I do, I always mess everything up and fill the kitchen with shrills lawl. But I really enjoy baking cakes, it’s just fun. Esp when you taste the yummy chocolate only to remember that you’re not supposed to do it coz it’s a gift for someone XDD
Who would you rather have on your side in a fight: Emerson or Thoreau?
No idea. Lulz. Thoreau?
What's your middle name?
My mouth is sealed on this one, sorry :P
What's your happiest memory (if you want to share it)?
My sixteenth birthday. I went to this restaurant by the sea and had dinner with my family and the food was awesome and the waves were soothing and the lights at the valleys on the west were wonderful :D
It's a rainy day and you have no school/work/whatever. What do you do all day?
PLAYVIDEOGAME XD; yeah, I’ll probably do that. Or I’ll read a novel…and of course. Make icons? Mmm. Listening to music. Or I’ll draw! <3
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR AND WHY. 8D
I love caramel/mute colors. White too. And somehow pink just looks good on me XD; and I don't think I have any particular reason. If I think they're good, I'll like them :DD; or because they're just soft♥
Oh, and also, HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOUR FAVORITE COLOR TO A BLIND MAN.
I’LL PASS. Damn you Annie! Anyone interested in answering this question for me? This is the hardest question LOL. Sorry to disappoint you, girl :P
what's your fave song?
Gahh. I love too many songs. But I’m currently in love with L’Arc~En~Ciel and Evanescence’s Imaginary
fave time of year?
When it comes to rainy season<3
do you have any siblings?
I do. Younger brother and sister :)
what do your usernames mean?
Ahh. Interesting question. Ryfee— fee means “fairy” in French, and ry, well, just something random that popped out in my head that time :)
Artistyc— derived from Artistic, only I kicked the “i” out and put “y” in to make it sound cool XD;
what do you usually eat for breakfast?
Bread. Or I’ll just drink milk if I’m late. I can’t eat much in the morning .__.
Where do you live?
Somewhere far, far away lolll. Nah. Asia :P.
What nationality are you?
…Asian!
How old are you?
Older than 13 and younger than 25. …lol hahahah! I’m 17 and will turn out 18 in three months. I feel so old .__. How old do you guys think I am?
What do you think is your best feature?
*frown* Can I say hair? D:
Who do you have the biggest crush on?
Hmm. Someone. Somewhere far away. Well, I used to have a crush on him. XD
If you had to smack a bitch, would you?
Maybe I would? I wanna know how it feels to actually smack someone >:3
AANNNNNNND IF A TREE FELL DOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE.. WOULD IT MAKE A NOISE?
...no? *cringe* this question seems familiar somehow...
Describe your fav. dress. (is this a question?)
no it isn’t lol! Let’s change that to “what do you like to wear”. Well I like wearing skirts/mini skirts. ;D
Who's the hottest guy in the world?
Don’t know. But I think Becks-- David Beckham is hot ;D ...or that Versus guy from FFXIII lol!
What book represent you the most? (with title and author)
What the hell. No idea.
When was the last time you couldn't stop laughing?
Can’t remember.
(if you answer number 4) What made you couldn't stop laughing?
mm :0
If you could be a character in a movie, what movie you'll be in and what character you'll be?
ADVENTURE/action/fantasy movie whoosh. I wanna use a bow damn it!

So yeah that's the end of it. Wow I finally answered all of them! XD;
Please do this meme if you can/want, my f-list :)

.__.

2008-04-19T03:52:22Z

First, sorry to my F-list if I haven't commented on your recent entries lately. My online time has been cut off as I'm facing final exam in like.. 3 days? XD; My mum stole the modem away and I can do nothing ;.; I hope I'll get it again after everything's over. For now, I can only apologize. But I will get to you guys soon! And if you have any icon posts I haven't commented yet, please say so; that'll help me a lot ^,^;

uber extra love~

2008-03-26T08:41:08Z

So I finally decided to watch these videos and I CAN'T STOP FAN-GIRLING NOW. THEY ARE JUST TOO AWESOME FOR WORDS♥ you MUST watch them if you are a fan of Final Fantasy/Kingdom Hearts/Dead or Alive. It's the best thing I've ever watched in my dear life. Ftw. Just click the cut to view them.

II:

I totally love Rikku♥ Yuna was so cool...and Tifa too, didn't she use lots of materias XD And RINOA. Wowoa she looked so divine! And the combination of her weapon+gunblade+wings+magic=awesomeness ;O; ...and Kairi whoot! XD; I hope there'll be Dead Fantasy III soon. More FF chars please, esp Garnet from 9 and Ashe from 12<3

DAMN D8

2008-03-24T10:38:54Z

DAMN L'ARC EN CIEL! JUST DAMN THEM. I've been addicted to their songs like crazy and their song "Seventh Heaven"-- GOSH IT'S AWESOME D: Plus their style is just so freaking cool it makes me go asdfjlasfjl;O;.
So uhm. *coughcough* I know I should be posting those answers but oh wellll. Does any of you guys have their songs? XDDD<3;;

..is still alive

2008-03-18T07:41:47Z

First, sorry to my f-list♥ if I haven't commented on your recent entries/posts. I've been sick and it's so ridiculous D: All I did is sleeping and laying on the bed like a rock >.>; But today I feel a bit better and I've just showered and washed my hair coz it was all sticky and just ewwwww and I really really hope the fever won't come back haha D: All in all, it wasn't pretty~ I even lost two pounds o:
Man, don't I hate headaches -__-
And my head still spins, probably because of too much sleeping hahah D:
I will slowly but surely browse through my friends page...when my head stops screaming XD;

meme ..

2008-03-05T04:32:20Z

So I feel like crap again today. Hahhahaha. I'm assuming that people only heed you when you say you're fucked up and stressed out and depressed. It sucks, huh. I'm so sick of it. The masks, everything.

Anyways. Meme. So we could know each other a little better yeah? Ask me up to seven questions about anything you want to know about me and I will answer them in the next post. So others won't have to scroll down for answers.

powerpuff girl lulz

2008-03-04T04:30:40Z

So physics nearly killed me again today. I spent most of my time drawing on my book *laugh* I'm such a bad student 8D

And I have to put this quiz up coz it's awesome and I kept forgetting to do it xD
Andddd I'm incredibly happy with the result coz somehow, it suits me so fxcking well. ....yeah, including the lovey lovey part. *coughcough*
Anyways, that's not important. Just click the cut for the result♥

Creativity- Your inner power is Creativity! Any of The Arts-music, dance, pure art, drama, creative writing-are your passion. You love the way you can control what happens to you and your life while you participate in any of The Arts, and you can push your emotions aside when you do so. You at times can feel very depressed and alone, and yet it only further fuels your love for your art. Life to you can often seem bitter and cruel, a world of darkness with only a few tiny flares of light, stretched out far in between one another. In a way youre confused with what you want in your life, and find it hard to trust people. Because of this people of the outside world see you as cold and uncaring, yet those who befriend you love you a lot, and know you are only very lonely and hurting. Boys are intrigued by your mysterious mask, and one day, one of them will reach passed your barriers and care for you the way you so desperately want to be cared for. Dont let the popular people get you down; you are a wonderful person, and without the creativity you bring the world, it would be a very boring place. Love yourself for who you are, for you are very special. Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet: A sweet, sensitive man/woman. The guy/girl who understands your need for being alone sometimes. Yet also someone who would do anything to protect you for being hurt, even if it means giving up their life. Your stone: Jade Your power: Dreaming/Imagination Your element: Dream A quote that applies to you: Dare to dream, dare to fly, dare to be the ever chosen one to touch the sky.
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#8

2008-02-28T02:31:07Z

I've deleted the previous entry coz it's all good now LMAO.
Uhm. Thanks to everyone who commented... and offered me so many things about the books problem LOL. Seriously, giving me the password of your school? Type an entire book? HOLYSHEET 8DDD; ♥♥
Thanks very much guys! Now I have a list of authors to hunt for >:3
They are:
FRANCESCA LIA BLOCK (damn you you make me curious to hell)
Stephen King
Neil Schusterman
Nicholas Evans (I really like his book "The Divide", but I can't find the rest of his collection D:)

More suggestion? 8D
Oh, and to answer gunshou 's comment, I'm into fantasy/thriller/drama/romance/anything that's good lol XD I hope you'll give your list of books ♥
..Anyone is recommended too; sharing is always a good thing yes? ;D

Mmmm I want ice cream darn D: *random*

super wonderful meme 8D <3

2008-02-23T02:18:23Z

First, thanks to those who have commented on my previous entry :D ♥ I feel better now XD

...And a wonderful meme grabbed from margyydoodle (said she swiped it from girlgamer):

Comment with a picture of the anime/manga/game character you feel most reminds you of ME. Then I will comment with a picture of the anime/manga/game character I feel most reminds me of YOU, even if we don't know each other that well.

8D ♥

Talk about depression :o

2008-02-20T04:21:25Z

I've been feeling so depressed lately, and I don't really know why :/
I also updated my icon journal yesterday... Take a look if you want. Links are supposed to be in my sidebar, but I guess I have no sidebar now lol o__o;

And I really want to grab the meme on margyy's journal-- can I, margyy? XD It looks so cool lmao. And I got Garnet 8D♥

Just an incredibly short update .. I feel like crap now. *sigh*

V-day & etc . .

2008-02-16T08:21:32Z

First, happy (late) V-day to my f-list♥; I hope all of you had a great day :)

So... I got a box of chocolate from Hana, damn she gave me too much lol!1! XD Not that I complain, but hers were so good and good-looking it put mine to shame lol ;__; *sucks at cooking*
I don't know what's wrong but people in my class didn't seem very excited about Valentine-- I don't know, did the spell wear off or something? XD Anyways, that's not important. It was my dad's birthday (YES, his birthday, how cool O:), and I had baked a cake for him before the day-- and God, it tasted so good! Almost like ice cream, I like how it melts in my mouth♥ I guess I'm proud of the cake lol :D
Oh, and it was raining really really hard that day, the thunders roaring and winds battering the windows and we were talking about ghosts AND I kept imagining those scary things later in bed >.> That's what I hate about ghost stories; I'm okay with people discussing it-- in fact I feel thrilled and excited sometimes. But the the bad thing is, I always feel scared after that, when I go to bed ;__; *sucks*

Mm btw. Does anyone from my f-list have KH caps? You know, FMV screenshots? I can't be fucked to look for them right now, esp find a decent website that has good quality pictures-- so, does any of you have them? I esp need KH2 opening/ending. I know this is too much to ask.. But if you could upload them to sendspace I would be most grateful and give you tons of chocolate :D♥
Thanks a lot before :)

..Oh, and I'm playing FFXII again XDDD;

FFXII :/

2008-02-12T06:02:33Z

Something weird happened O__O I wanted to log in but livejournal wouldn't allow me to. Wrong password, they said. And I was like, "shflah;asjflaj!!f@3192!&*@^!" I was prompted to change my password, it's so stupid D:

FFXII rant below.

Anyways... Hmm. I tried to replay FFXII again because I really need games atm, but goshhh. FFXII is killing me. All the hunts and sidequests -___- Hana's brother has hit almost 200 hours and he still hasn't cleared all the hunts/quests! GUYS. 200 freaking HOURS!! *die* And I hate how we have to level up like crazy before going to the next destination, picking up all the trash, selling them, getting money, buying stuff, kicking some monsters' butt, picking trash, selling them, getting money and so on. GOD. And in the end we'll be like "Uhm. What the hell are they talking about? Oh yeah, right, they''re going to get the goddamn netichite and kick some bastard's ass..." The leveling thing is just too much to bear. It makes us forget the whole story, sometimes -__-
Don't get me wrong, I like FFXII; it's really cool... but yeah, you see the point now :/ I really want to play it but T__T
What game should I play? Any suggestion? O:

Now moving on... Valentine Day soon and I still haven't made any chocolate! *laugh* I should, really, or else I won't have any chocolate to give and that'll make a really evil cat XD;

And strife-chii I haven't made the fanart I promised you, but I will, soon :D (you know, school sucks)

I would have posted some of my drawings now but I'm too lazy to scan them XP Next time, I guess XD

That's the spirit girl XP

2008-02-05T07:03:14Z

This morning was crappy beacuse I had chems for two straight hours, followed by bio (not fun at all) for also two hours, then physics two hours, and finally math two hours. IT DROVE ME CRAZY. Plus my hand hurt because I had to write down lots of stuff on my math book. It sucks.

Anyway, what made me happy today was how people kept saying nice stuff about me. Upon giving the crits I asked ff7com_lims' mod said that she actually wanted to to see me go to the final, that she adored my icons to death. Gosh I'm flattered. People keep saying nice things about me ;__; *sobsob* I think what I can do for now is just working harder and harder XD (not in chems or physics or math though O:)

Just a short post because I'm still learning how to make a long one :DD;

just a prologue ..

2008-02-04T08:45:02Z

I don’t know how to make an opening so let’s just act as if I’d owned this journal for a really longgg time XD

Well okay… So today I finally got eliminated at ff7com_lims . Sad, I know. But I somehow knew it was coming, beside my icon was crappy and made in the middle of the night so I wasn’t really surprised at all XD It’s just sad that I can’t become the big three lol D:
I’ll work harder next time ♥
Andddd. I try to join as many lims as I can because I want to know how good I am. Aren’t I ridiculous! XD;
Oh, and the prize at vgames_lims is SOO shiny. PAID ACCOUNT for two months, ~~holy shet~~ I want that O:

So yeah, school is pretty boring as always; I spent my time writing and dozing off haha XD And I really want to replay FFXII again. I’m beginning to like Penelo o:

~will post poetry/drawing soon XP